Just an average girl…Those are the words I used to describe myself. I had dreams, but never did I think they would become a reality. I am my hardest critic and always will be. It was not until a little over a year and a half ago, that I started to believe in myself. I started to see what I could be and what I could accomplish, and that’s how it all started.
After moving back to my hometown from sunny California, I started to gain weight. My routine changed, and the negative self-assessment set in. After searching for a few months, I finally found a gym that I could call home. I participated in two of their fat loss challenges and I couldn’t believe the changes that I was starting to see. I was hooked! One particular instructor really inspired me. Her transformation was incredible and she was also a fitness competitor. She asked me if I had ever thought of competing and it got my brain spinning, because I had.
A few months later, I found myself training to compete in bikini. I was lifting like crazy and eating a ton. I was in love, and scared shitless all at the same time. My first day of training, I kid you not, I wanted to give up before I even started. I had to talk myself out of driving back home. My self-doubt was winning, but I managed to tell her to shut the hell up and I decided at that moment to believe in myself. It was one of the best decisions I ever made.
Slowly this lifestyle was becoming a habit. Training, food prep, waking up at the crack of dawn, saying no to indulgences, eating 5-6 times a day…HABIT. I found out that I thrived with a routine. Each day was easier when it was organized. But it wasn’t easy. The hardest part for me, was the food. My trainer wanted to see what I was eating day to day, so she had me track my food intake. A big holy shit, is what happened. What I considered a “healthy” diet, was quite the opposite. I never tracked macros before and had no idea what on earth they were, to be honest. Well, after one day of tracking…this is what happened. I found out that 40% of my diet consisted of fat and another 40% was carbs, and only 20% was from protein! I was sabotaging myself and didn’t even know it. So I had quite a few adjustments to make and I needed to be eating quite a bit more than I was. I was super stressed at first, because I was not preplanning my food and I was “winging it” every day. Word of advice…DO NOT WING YOUR DIET. So I slowly became introduced to food prepping. It was and is a life saver and a time saver. Being organized and prepared will only help you to be successful. So every Sunday, is prep day: turkey, salmon, chicken, vegis, rice, protein waffles, pre-portioning out protein powder and supplements…You name it.
Choosing to be a fitness competitor is anything but easy, but I love it and I am addicted to it. I have never had such an adrenaline rush in my entire life, than when I was up on that stage. I have never done something so challenging and yet so rewarding. As soon as I stepped off that stage from my first show, I just wanted more. I was inspired by everyone around me and I wanted to start prepping for my next show right away. I craved more for myself and I knew I could step it up a level. I have set some crazy and intimidating goals for myself, and they literally scare the shit out of me, but they make me wake up every day with an intention.
This is my journey, and no one else’s. It’s unique, amazing, exciting, scary, nerve racking, self-seeking, messy, intimidating, inspiring…and I cannot wait to see where it leads me. I am in charge of my life and my future, no one else. My journey has taught me that I am enough, I am capable, and I can do and will do what I set my mind to. Believing in yourself will create a whole new world of opportunities, and it’s so worth it. Never be afraid to jump; yes, you may fall…but what if you fly?